I have been lazy lately. I mean, other than taking care of another human being, I have been lazy. Although, the way she climbs my leg to be held makes me wonder if she is entirely human.
I have not just been lazy on my blog, but I have been lazy with my projects that are half started (and have been for months and some even years), I have been lazy about walking my dog, lazy with getting things together for the yard sale I have been wanting to have all summer, lazy with doing gardening and housework....the list goes on, trust me. I am sure many other fellow mothers can relate to feeling behind or lazy, like me, but I have realized why I have been feeling (and acting) this way; I have not set any goals for myself.
I have realized that I really need to buckle down and get my butt in gear and in order to do that I am going to have to put myself back in the mind set of a student. Deadlines, expectations, scheduling, goals.....I need that again.
The last year I have had the time of my life taking care of my daughter. I love her - there are no words to adequately describe how much, so I will just leave it at, I love her. I love spending time with her, teaching her, watching her brain work and figure things out. Even though sometimes I think she is a creature sent from the evil pits of Hell to steal my soul by not letting me sleep, I love her and being with her. In becoming an observer I have thrown schedules out the window and have just been going with the flow and I have stopped doing the things that I used to spend a lot of time doing, and enjoyed.
Creating - if you check out my Pinterest boards you will see some of the objects that inspire me to create.
Gardening - I still have not finished what I started in the Spring and the weeds are taking over. Sometimes I bite off more than I can chew.
Writing - I started this blog to get back into writing (and reading) and I have not set any goals for it. I want this blog to be something I can look back on and be proud of. I would also like other people to see it - friends, family, strangers - and want to stick around. I would like to think the adventures I write about and show are interesting to people, but most of all, helpful.
So far, what I have posted has not been helpful. I mostly post about my daughter, because, truthfully, I had no idea what else to write about and obviously she is the main part of my life right now, since it is just her and I 70% of the time. As cute and wonderful as she is (save the times she turns into Demon-spawn when I put her down for a nap) I know that a very small audience is going to find pictures of my daughter pulling the tail of the cat interesting and make them want to stick around for more. Although, I am sure it would make the people who pa-rouse Youtube for cat videos stick around. Maybe I need more cats on my blog.....
So, the next few days, weeks, months, I will be setting tangible goals for myself to accomplish. I hope to post them because that will really hold me accountable. I am a visual learner so lists are good for me (especially with this lingering mommy-brain, lists are very helpful).
Have you set any recent goals for yourself?